OK that's it...I'm sick of repeating myself to people... this is to all the nosy parkers out there who desperately wanna noe how i fared in the exams but have no guts to ask me and have to go through a tonne of other pple to get to me... I'll just lay it all out for ya'all to see... GD?!~ FINE?!~ sheesh...gee

Character Developement = C plus [i presume i have lousy character...hmmmm i tink tt inculdes like several of my other friends in class...u noe who u are...ha!welcome to da club~]

Fundamentals of Marketing = C plus [i tink tts higher than average rite?cos seetoh said average is C which is 60...hhha take tt teetoh!u tuttering tutor!oh boi...]

Introduction to Communication Principles = B plus [tt suked royally!]

Desktop Publishing = B plus [ditto above...double doses of horsespit!hellish...i tink i must have screwed up CK's racer book cover...haha this is bad!Ck dun read this alrite...i dun tink u have the addy to this...lol gd!]

Information Technology for Business = A [no i din get a distinction...n im not the blardy pet of will tan...stop assuming...its just an A...get over it!]

Creative Communication = A [was hoping for more tho~ guess not!]

Oral Communication = DISTINCTION

I think I've said enough...

recap! A A B+ B+ C+ C+ DISTINCTION...

Have I satisfied your curiousity yet?

It's been awhile...

Awhile since I seriously blogged...seriously as in with a sane rational mind void of raging emotions...which more often than not sets my flying fingers and thoughts on a wild ruse...perhaps I should really consider not blogging at all for sometime...away from this safe little haven where problems seemingly cannot touch me...this is my solace ground where I can feel how I feel...n let the whole world know that I don't care about what they have to say about me or to me...its quite sad isn't it?!~

I mean sad as in I don't understand why can't I come face to face with my problems must I run and hide, squirm and duck, jump and skip all the while I'm alive? Problems come round the bend like a speeding bullet, faster than u can ever make out. Before you know it, it's probably blown up all over your face, out of proportion. That's how I've been feeling these days, short of breath, tight about the chest, hyperventilating, eyes wide shut, blank xpressions, non committed blabberings... It's getting ridiculous. I mean me. But most of all I mean my current fix, the present situation, all the mess n trouble that I have clear... It's like a never ending cycle that I'm tired of. Ironically I have pple callin me up in the dead of the night telling me how life sux for them, how lost they feel, how bad things are going agt their way, how fragile relationships and life is to them...N guess what? They expect to hear an answer, advice, consolations, things like that. Who am I to give them all that when I can't solve my own puzzles? But ya noe the strangest thing, I find myself talking to those lost upset depressed beings, telling them to be rational. I hear myself consoling them, I even hear sound advice and logic sprouting in my deranged self. How can this be? It's like 2 persons sharing one body. One tired body.

It's unreal but it's true, those pple are my witnesses. That's it...I have a split personality disorder! Oh gee...Me thinks I've been reading too much of Sidney Shieldon...

i noe i noe...i haven't blogged for damn long already...been realli busy..yea i noe its a lousy excuse...okok i confess i'm just plain lazy n yada yada tired yada...dun blame me man...work is tiring when u go back after some time...it's like readapting to my surroundings...it used to be with tonnes of books but now its like work, pple, money, customers, sales, smiling...the works...i seriously think the job of a salesperson is like wad the chinese call "MAI XIAO" no not dun b crazy...but mai xiao means something like a prostitute...why i say tt cos a salesperson's job is like...forever smiling forever giving in to the customer, forever doing everything they want...it's like sellin urself to them...tts y i said its like whoring...sounds sucky rite?oh well tts life nth's realli fair...im used to it already...i used to like doin sales...the satisfaction of beating the old birds in all the branches i go to makes me fell good...i mean i may not b as perfect in looks as them but i can convince pple to buy generously without any problem...it's like a very natural thing for me...to make pple do things agt their will...haha sounds realli bad rite?well i dun force them but they subconciously agree with whatever i introduce n suggest...it's like so amazing aint it?my most fun thing at work is beating the crap outta my seniors n supervisors in sales targets etc.i know its alittle thing but nonetheless it strokes my ego...haha my boss loves me...realli...gd pay gd incentives gd working conditions...haha oh well win some lose some...at least i'm not losing it all thank god!thank the blessed lord...i am such a lucky girlie...no its not luck...its grace...god's blessings...phew~

sometimes i look into the mirror n see this grosteque being...someone totally inperfect...how i wish i could become someone else...someone more beautful more attractive smarter more eloquent more likeable more of the gd things n less of the bad stuff...but tts how god made me...i can't help it can i?

God grant me the serenity to accept the things tt i can't change, the wisdom to change those tt i can & the peace to noe the difference...

[	mood	|	awake	]
[	music	|	Fish Leung - Chun Zhen	]

it's been a rough day...it's not nice to wait for pple for like 5hrs...i swear i've never waited for anyone this long...thank god i've got smth to distract myself with if not i tink i'll go berserk & stomp off within half an hr...haha i tink im becoming more understanding n patient to a certain xtent...i mean those are supposed to be virtues aren't they?gd 2cultivate them aite?i mean there's no harm or whatsoever tt i can tink off XCEPT mayb pple will actually start bossing me or pushing me ard or making me do things i dun wanna do, etc etc...i tink ya ged ma pt alreadi aite?

sigh...there's so much to do & so little time for everything...i just cant believe the fact tt its saturday officially now & im not having fun yet...worse I have to burn my wkends for the books.how sinful is tt man?n sunday i need to practice my music so hard tt it has to seem i've been banging my piano for almost 2hrs every other day of the past 2wks...tell me how in the world m i gonna do tt?sheesh there's more I have to fix my 12 LONG Chapters of Marketing by tonight & I'm onli done with 8...tell me wth m I gonna do now?i dunoe either...i havent checked my mail, my friendster my every other social acc for eons...if you mailed me & can't find me you know y now...haix its kinda depressing but i tink i've gotten used to it...life's liddat aint it?if you can't win it, join it rite?just tell me where to sign up & i'm ready 2go...

i'm actually quite awake i dunoe why tho i mean i slept late last nite..insomnia robbed my slp i wasn't studying hard enough i guess...i laid on my bed & rolled abt for 3hrs...slept at 3am...woke at 7.45am...it's been tiring...taxing & taking toil on me...the acne's gonna start up real soon & i'm gonna have a pimple plantation tell me what m i gonna harvest?scars?pock-marks?eww let's not go there...anyways im officially seriously very broke...those pple who owe me money like a certain K***N & C***C. will you guys kindly spare the dough...i shld get back approximately...what's 175 + 50? oh great my brain's not functioning anymore how m i gonne study at all?god...help me...sigh i tink i'm just gonna slp on it & 4get abt all the shyt until tml...arghx im agitated...dun tempt me 2rail you...go away~ leave me in peace...i can handle being alone...